Satu Kalimat Memusnahkan Good Mood

an hour ago I got a good mood. Knowing two of my friends have been selected for an exchange. I went to the boarding  house happily. When I arrived, I got lessons :

- Good mood can dissappear only because of a sentence
- different person will give different response

I passed the owner of the boarding house
"ada yg numpahin air di kursi itu siapa ya?"
"saya bu"
"kok bisaa?" nada kesel
"hehee tadi airnya di tas, tasnya ditaruh kursi. ternyata tumpah"
"hhh trus gimana itu? basah gitu. nanti mau ada yg ngaji"
*diem*
"pokoknya nanti dikeringin"

memang saya manusia yg masih lemah. Omongan, lebih ke nada yang tadi langsung bikin badmood.  Rasanya pengen mbantah "yaelah cuma gitu doang" tapi itu ga baik. jadi saya diem. Menyusun rencana.

Mrongkol bgt sih. good mood hilang seketika sih. Coba tadi ibunya bilangnya

"nanti kan mau ada yg ngaji, kasian nanti kalau basah. Tolong dikeringin ya."

Menurutku itu lebih enak diterima daripada nanyain "kenapa bisa?" (yang jelas2 kemungkinan besar itu ga sengaja) nanyain "itu gimana?" (dengan nada super gaenak di hati) mana setelah itu pas ketemu lagi ngucapin "nalaa nala, kursiku dibasahin" (padahal saya sudah ngeringin, kursinya juga udah kering). Yaudah lah yaaa beda orang beda respon. Kan beda sistem beda respon impulsnya (et dah ini apaan).

trus saya jadi mikir, sepertinya manusia itu cenderung memberontak jika kata-kata yang diberikan justru yang negatif. Apalagi dengan intonasi yang menyebalkan.

Trus saya jadi mikir juga. Jangan-jangan saya sudah terlalu sering bikin sebel. Jangan-jangan ibu kosan sebenernya ngempet hidup bersama kayak gini. Kalau dipikir-pikir kasihan juga sih.

Alhamdulillah di rumah orang tua saya, saya masih bisa bebas. Alhamdulillah orang tua saya mau mengerti saya. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah

Congratulation, Guys ^^

Kyaaa I don't know why i am so happy. An inbox came to my email several minutes ago. From Mr. Ichu. Deg. Dag Dig Dug Dherrr. A bit shocked, I opened it, Bismillah. It was an announcement about the exchange to Japan. The selected participants were my friends (ya iyalah orang sejurusan) Let's call them Gesi and Yudi. Waaaa I am so happy knowing this announcement hahaha besides I'm not the one selected. Tapi ga tau dah ini seneng banget rasanya.

Hahahaa it's okay. I've tried. I am not a loser this time. Gyahahahaa

Now the Important thing is repairing myself. Hahahaa orang ngejalanin perintah agama masih belum bener gini kok minta-minta yang lebih. Gyahahahaaa :D :D

Congratulation, guys. May Allah bless you. May the next step will be done smoothly. Semangaat! Ganbatte Kudasai!

"I want to make friends"

Mana semangatmu? Kalau loyo begini bagaimana mau menghadapi level kehidupan berikutnya? Gimana mau meraih impian itu?

Nuthouse of Life

I just attended Rumah Belajar (Rumbel) HME, one of the social devotion program of Himpunan Mahasiswa ELektroteknik. Actually, I have joined it since last year but my presence is less then five. Hahaha At first, I didn't plan to come but finally I followed Rahmi and Fitri to come.

The first thing I saw was a river, very dirty river. It was full with trashes and I found two people were washing beside a well near the river. It is only about 2 meters apart from the river. Actually it is not an ordinary river, all the grey water in this area meets in this river. The  first thing I said in my mind was "Astaghfirullah, How a great fortune I got, There is enough space in my home and also in my boarding house to wash clothes. I don't have to look for water or more place to wash. And I think I also got water in better quality than them. So how rude I am, for not realizing the grace I got for a long time."

I passed them and went to the location of rumbel. It is about 5 meters apart.It was crowded. Just like other agenda of Rumbel I attended, it was chaos. All this kids made much noises. It was hard to control them besides I was not familiar and didn't get along with them. Watching them made me got such a headache and thought that I am grateful for growing up in such a wonderful place, my sweet home, having such parents like my mom and dad, being teached, educated with such methods my parents did to me that I got myself in this state.

It comes to my mind that everyone should have their nuthouse. Yea, nuthouse, rumah sakit jiwa. Not a hospital in physical or mental in psychology point of view but mental in religious point of view, Moslems called it "iman", I mean the state that describes how is your relationship with your Lord.

When you feel that you fail, everything you did was useless, desperate, feel that God is unfair, so try to walk around. Look your surroundings. Feel the sensation of life. Think it. Whatever you find, if you realize it, you will find that you have a great Lord. You will be amazed by the greatness of the Lord.

If you find green surroundings, feel the sensation of peace, the sensation of oxygen, the beautiful sound of birds, the beauty given by sunlight, the beauty of peaceful and great scenery. Feel it. I think you'll find this situation is amazing. How powerful our God to create these all creature with all complex details they have so you can enjoy all this air.

maybe find a same thing like i told before. You will find that you are lucky. You have to be thankful, be grateful to your God. How can you judge God to be unfair whereas He gives you uncountable grace. Even the air you breathe is wonderful thing that you got it freely and you never think about this.

maybe you find people. You can find that people have their own ways and roles. No one is perfect. God create all human being to help each other. That's why people don't master all subjects. They master only several of them. It happens in all aspects of life.

in short, the point I want to tell you is Find how great your Lord is and you will realize that you are nothing compared to Him and He loves you.

It is important to let them know

I got a badmood, bad feeling and bad physical condition 2 days ago. Maybe I had an "overdoze" of thinking about something. Hahahaaaa such a fool reason.

Here I give you an advice. When you get bored, bad mood, get any negative aura. quickly, quickly bring yourself free from it. Catched by negative aura change ourselves to tend to think negatively, make us do useless thing : walking in the turbulence, turbulence of our mind. Never get the "eigen value". Whereas the solution is really simple. As simple as folding our hand.

I had a probem in telling what I want to my parents. We had different opinion and will about my life of study. I decided to against it quietly. But it is hard for me doing something without let my parents know, especially to take great step in ny life. I mean trying to take a step to reach my dreams.

Finally this morning I told them what I want to do and also ask for their pray. Alhamdulillah now I feel free. It's time for me to fight. If Allah permits, I can pass it with excellent output and come to the next fights. Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim. no losing before the war begins.

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